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my art in 172,800 pixels



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these are my drawings on a 480x360 canvas, inspired by the sprite editor of scratch 1.4.
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An illustration of Star Trek's Data on the bridge of the Enterprise, sitting at his console and looking over his shoulder at the viewer with a neutral expression. He wears a French maid's uniform and a pair of orange tabby cat ears. Kitty cat. He itty kitty. Meow. Meow. His costume is accented with command gold bows, a little bell and ribbon around his neck, and yes, he still has his rank displayed in pips on his collar, albiet on the wrong side.

01.04.24 ~ Lieutenant Commander Data catboy maid REAL ! ? !



A self portrait rendered on a lifeless green background. I am standing in front of my mirror, sink, and counter cluttered with tape and scissors. In the nude, I am rendered from the elbow up, with my back to you, the viewer, as I gaze at my reflection. Messy, matted brown hair cascades over my shoulder, my skin rendered in anemic shades of purple and ivory. Below my shoulder blades you can see a bright pop of sallow colour, the kinesiology tape that I am binding with. Finger and thumb on my chin contemplatively, a dull, dark expression hangs on my face. In the mirror, my reflection stands with a hand on their hip, slight impatience and shared disappointment darkening their features from where they glare back. And in front of them, taped to the mirror blocking where their torso should be seen, is a saturated photo of a female body: waist thin, hips wide, tummy round, breasts glisnening. Nipples censored.

26.02.24 ~ it was something i said to the woman at the gender clinic. doing intake stuff, she asked me the stock question: "do you ever feel like you were born in the wrong body?" its the kind of question that doesnt have a very simple answer, its not just a yes or a no. the quickest thing i could relate to her that seemed like an answer to the question was this. when i look at myself in the mirror, and i look at my body, sometimes it feels like there's a magazine clipping taped up, an image of someone else superimposed over me. almost like it isnt quite real.
i started taping recently. its been bringing up a lot of buried feelings, dragging them up from the depths, all coated in mud and alge and peat. its been strange work, and a little painful. allowing myself to feel things that i've numbed myself to for so long, with no way to change my circumstances. something as intimate as one's body--it really is bizarre, being so familiar with it, yet feeling so detatched. its scary sometimes, since this is the only body i have. without it what would i be? i think that sometimes i get overly attatched to it in its current state, like a broken down car thats been rotting in the yard for years. and, generally, i'm afraid of change. so my brain frets about it, almost like its scared i'm going to lose it, like if it changes too much it'll cease being my own. but that's ridiculous. it will always be mine, and i'm grateful for that. as many times as i look at it and feel lost, and like it isnt my own, there are other times when i look at myself and i see the potential. the potential to feel whole.



Two sketches of the same figure, one pale red and rendered from the chest up, one light blue and rendered from the waist up. They have long scruffy side swept hair, pale skin, are wearing an oversize sweater, and are coloured in with messy strokes monochromatically with various shades and tones of their respective colour. The red sketch shows the figure smiling and blushing, their eyes shut cheerfully aa they fiddle with their hands in front of them. The blue sketch shows them glancing bashfully to the side with a silly smile, holding their arms with their baggy sleeves in front of them. The background is blocks of pastel colour in yellow, green, cyan and purple.

09.02.24 ~ just some sketches. stay cozy, folks <3



An illustration of a quintessential edgy emo demon black cat boy, who runs along a dark path in an eerie and whimsical clearing of the woods, the foggy night sky with a bright full moon casting light stretches out above. Head tilted warily as he glances around, his expression is a gloomy looking frown. He has a long dark fringe that covers one of his aquamarine eyes, and a little horizontal scar stretches cutely across his nose. On his chipped ear he wears a black stud and black cross earring. From his forehead sprouts a little red demon horn, and at his back are two floating red demon wings. On his two front paws he wears black fingerless gloves, and wrapping his tail is a long tattered bandage, which flows behind him in a cool, edgy manner. Around his neck is a shiny silver chain, from which an aquamarine blue teardrop shaped pendant swings, gleaming in the moonlight.

16.01.24 ~ as promised, behold Zurian. i feel like "Mayra's" design benefitted from the simplicity so i didn't adjust it much, but i feel like Zurian needed more of an update. to stay true to intention, he HAS to look super edgy & emo & cool, yknow. he needed the bells and whistles. this piece made me realize i need to do far more environmental art. i dont think environments actually take me longer than figures, but they feel like they do, you know? i get lost in fiddling with a character but working on an environment feels unnatural. i'm happy with how this one came out and want to get more comfortable with the process in the future



An illustration of an angelic pale yellow cat, standing facing the viewer on a luminous staircase in the pale blue sky. Surrounded by rays of light, clouds spilling down around their feet, they stand imposingly like a guardian, their long silky tail swishing beside them, and one front paw lifted in an elegant and stern pose. Silver wings unfurl symmetrically, framing them with two on each side, and fixed on a white collar, a teardrop shaped emerald hangs from their neck. Unnatural light emanates from their emerald green eyes, which are wide open, expressionless and otherworldly. Looking closely you could observe their pupils as glowing white crosses.

08.01.24 ~ happy new year!!! omg havent posted since september, so sad!!! i havent drawn too much in the last couple weeks, and i've missed it a lot. been feeling kind of wound up, still decompressing from the end of dec, so i really just felt like drawing something quick and rough and indulgent to relax and have some fun. seemed like the perfect opportunity to return and post again :) i've been fueled by nightcore for the last few days, so i felt compelled to let loose and draw like it was 2013. well, i guess thats kind of the whole premise of the blog actually... this is an old oc of mine. their name was Mayra, but i think i'll probably change that to something more imaginative lol. of course, they were designed as a set with another oc, who was basically identical but with an "edgier" colour scheme. very creative. maybe i'll do one of them as well. >:3c oh! forgot to mention, as a follow up to my tablet woes a few months ago, i thought it would be a good idea to get a drawing device that could handle higher image resolutions (not particularly relevant here but relevant elsewhere lol) so i got myself an android tablet!! i love it a lot, it draws well, the pen is comfy to use and i got a very cute pastel purple case for it :) plus, its kinda nice to draw on a screen again. anyways sorry for the rant!!! here's to 2024 and making art that makes us feel happy and fulfilled.



An illustration of a small light grey figure kneeling down with their head hung low, face in shadow. Rendered full body. An expression of resigned dread and anxiety is pinned upon their face as they stare at a fixed point on the ground. They are pale and still, rigid like a statue. Hands gripping their knees, they are framed by a circular shadow upon the ground. Tones of an uneasy purple are used in the shading of the figure, who is diminutive in the middle of the transparent background, sinking into the void of the dark grey of the website's background colour.

19.09.23 ~ wow, already 2/3 through september... really let this one slip me by. though, i feel like i've let pretty much the whole year slip me by tbh. anyways! didn't intend to return with such a gloomy piece, but when i made a new doc i just felt like doing a vent piece. honestly, i have really been struggling lately. either way im glad finally make a new post, hopefully i'll get a couple more in before the month is over lol!



An illustration of two horned furry creatures, looking happy and celebratory. Rendered from the waist up. The creature on the left is shades of pale yellow and orange with long wavy horns that stretch upward. They squeeze their eyes shut open their mouth in an expression of elation, and they hold their clawed paws up in the air. The creature on the right is shades of pale blue and green, with shaggy bangs that cover their eyes, and horns that curl upwards. They wear a little fanged smile and clasp their paws together in front of them in a pleased gesture. Sprinkled above the creatures' heads is a smattering of little purple music notes.

28.08.23 ~ my sister has lent me a mini usb cable so i can use my old tablet now yay ^a^ its gonna take a little while to get used to it again after drawing directly on the screen for so long. just a quick doodle to celebrate... wondering if this will end up being my last post for august?



An illustration of a mint green feminine creature, whose tendril-like lilac hair blows back behind her. Rendered from the shoulder up, with the subject in profile. She wears a tangerine coloured handkerchief on her head, partially covering plush purple frills, or maybe ears. Her skin is shiny, her closed eyes have long purple lashes, and she wears a peaceful smile. The backround is filled with subtly doodled white flowers, creating an airy atmosphere.

22.08.23 ~ peaceful creachure. is she amphibian maybe? i drew this one on my phone, which has a much more saturated screen, so now on my laptop it looks quite pastel and washed out...



A simple, rudimentary illustration of a person who is crestfallen, eyes turned upward staring into space as hunch over and rest their head in their hands. Rendered from the shoulder up. The figure is filled with a flat white grey colour and the background is a checkered grey, the typical background used by image editing programs to express transparency in the file. A few squiggles radiate from the characters face, indicating their moodiness. A few unimpressed flat mouthed emoticons are scribbled in the margins of the image. The line quality and detail are lacking in this drawing when compared to others on this site.

18.08.23 ~ i cannot get my stylus to work, so i thought it'd be a good time to dust off the ol' trackpad. just like the old days, posting trackpad vent art lamenting your tablet woes. it's certainly still as demoralizing when your pen breaks as it was back then



An illustration of two furry creatures standing beside eachother, looking happy and content. Rendered from the waist up. The creature on the left is green, with long fluffy ears hanging down, fuzzy striped arms, and elegant swoopy bangs. Around their face are little green and purple hearts and sparkles. Their eyes are closed and their expression is sheepish but amused. The creature on the right is purple, with curved little horns, fluffy ears that swoop back from the top of their head, shiny paws with little claws, and tatoos on their shoulder depicting a heart, deer skull, and pentagram. They wear two clips in their wild hair, and beaded bracelets on both wrists. Around their face are little green and purple lightning bolts. They lean on the creature on the left, one hand raised excitedly, eyes shut tightly and mouth open laughing, as they seem to be in stitches about something. Both smile brightly.

15.08.23 ~ some kind of creachures... they seem to be having a good time



An illustration of a human grinning at the viewer, with a little bear puppet on their left hand. Rendered from the waist up. They have shortish, swooping, glittery purple hair and sparkly cyan eyes, tan skin, and wear a pastel striped cropped tank top and jeans. The bear puppet is a warm brown with a little blue muzzle, and has a shy expression, holding its paws up to partially cover its mouth, with little cartoon indications of sweat drops leaping away from its face in startlement.

11.08.23 ~ being completely honest here.. the puppet was made only to cover up the hand that wasnt working out



A very simple illustration of an unclothed person in the style of an anime base. Rendered from the knee up. They are bald, fair skinned with purple eyes and are, aside from their face, featureless. Turned at a three-quarter angle, they smile cheerfully at the viewer with a sway in their hip, one arm in front of them, palm facing the floor, the other held up beside them, thumb and forefinger outstretched in a meaningless gesture that looks as though they meant to indicate something of a small length.

10.08.23 ~ wanted to draw a base kinda thing



An illustration of Hatsune Miku wearing a purple blouse and poofy purple skirt, framed by text in the background that reads: Miku. Rendered from the knee up. Her signature aqua high pigtails are decorated with purple cuffs that have a white lace trim. She wears a cap sleeved purple top over a long sleeved, flouncy white shirt with a peter pan collar. Her skirt is a deeper, sparkly purple and is layered over a ruffled petticoat. Surrounded by little teal and purple flowers, she has a sweet, unbothered expression.

09.08.23 ~ im thinking miku :)



programs i use

firealpaca
scratch 1.4
ibispaint(mobile)

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